Answering "The Call"
Prophet and Teacher
Growing up, I was sensitive and easily shaken. I wasn’t scared of everything, but I had a strong sense when something wasn’t right. That sense wasn’t always clear—it blurred the lines between real and imagined fears. Even small things like a deep voice, a scary movie, or the smell of a cigarette could overwhelm me. I cried in secret often, especially at night, when sadness, fear, and worry felt the heaviest.
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At 16, I became a mother. While others saw it as a setback, my daughter became the spark that changed my life. God used her to give me strength and purpose. She helped me grow and taught me to be brave, but I also used motherhood to avoid facing my own pain. I poured everything into her, thinking I was healed, but in reality, I was just covering up the broken pieces.
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Developed In Darkness:
Over time, my struggles began to pile up. I dropped out of high school while pregnant but went back to graduate. College didn’t work out, and I fell into a cycle of partying and drinking to numb my feelings. From 17 to 22, I faced depression, unhealthy relationships, and battles with bulimia. When motherhood no longer felt like enough to hold me together, I hit rock bottom.
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One night, I cried out in the dark, asking, “If you’re real, please help me. Please show me why I’m here.” It was one of the loneliest moments of my life. I didn’t call anyone, because there was no one I trusted with that level of vulnerability. I didn’t know it then, but God heard my cry. He became my only companion during those hard days. Slowly, He started working in my life. I got married, started a family, and became a nurse—a title I was proud of. But I still hadn’t dealt with my past. I leaned on my roles as wife and mom to feel worthy, placing expectations on others that only God could meet.
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Eventually, the pressure became too much. I began having panic attacks at work, and I realized I needed to stop and face my brokenness. Without the title of “nurse” to hide behind, I felt lost and insecure. But in that stillness, God met me. Alone with Him, He showed me that the pain I had buried wasn’t gone—it was just waiting to be dealt with.
Positioned to Produce:
It was in that solitude, with only God to lean on, that He began shaping me for this place. Through the struggle and torment, He built in me a full assurance of His faithfulness. He didn’t just bring me through; He prepared me to be what I once needed—a source of support, encouragement, and clarity for those in transition.
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Today, I stand as a testament to the reality of God, who is sometimes hard to see but always present. Through Establishing Eden, I serve as a tangible source for our faithful Gardener, not by my hands but by His. This ministry is equipped by God to build, carry, and cultivate His people, providing the nourishment and care we need to flourish.
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Establishing Eden is a faith-based ministry focused on helping others care for their spiritual, emotional, and physical environments. It’s about living as God intended, with Him at the center of it all. Eden represents the perfect place God created for us—a place where we thrive in His presence.
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My prayer is that you allow God to plant and grow you into all He created you to be. Together, we can flourish as His branches, bearing His fruit and sharing His love. Let’s grow into the fullness of life He has for us.
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